i need you

I feel empty, collapsed, one with millions of people around, unmotivated, clutching a stuffed animal that reminds me of you. I feel as if something was killing me slowly, I try to smile and I can not, I must not depend on you to be happy, but I miss you so much ... would do anything for hug you if only a few seconds ... after so long I'm starting to forget the smell of your skin ... and I am so afraid ...